Remember when you were a kid and your parents pepped you up for such things as vacations, or Christmas?? Well, my vacation/Christmas is about here. I mean when the date of October 26 was scheduled, there was still months to prepare. There was plenty of time to do everything and hell, maybe the doctor's would finally tell me that all of this was a big joke... well with only hours away, it is not a joke, and it is going to happen. People ask how I have been feeling, and I really think that I am both emotionally and mentally prepared. I have been seeing a Kidney Specialist since high school, and I guess my mind has finally accepted it and is going to allow it to happen. Please don't get me wrong, I am freaking the freak out... but in a calm way. I know what I need to do, I know what is expected of me, I just need to let other people take control and I need to "heal". The next few days are going to fly by. Aunt Kim is already in town and we both have some appointments to go to on Monday. She seems so calm and prepared, as where I am still hoping she wants to do this. I know she does, but damn that Catholic guilt.
I know that I have thanked everyone for everything, but the prayers and support cannnot be thanked enough. I am getting a second chance at a whole new beginning starting Tuesday about 1pm. My family has been so supportive and very direct with me. I appreciate that. I know that a lot will have to change once this surgery takes place, but my god, I am so ready to have a new beginning. "The New Megan... Now with a new and improved Kidney". I really am at a loss for words on how to thank everyone. People are just paying so much forward.
Officially I am done working and hope to go back in a few months. I NEED and MUST give myself time to "heal". I need to look at it as a short term break that may lead to greater things... So this is when all the donations and fundraising money will come in to use. It will help pay my insurance (cobra)and medication as it is being prescribed.
So tonight I do my second to last dialysis treatment and have only two more sleeps... I pray that everyone stays well for the next 40 some hours... and this happens. People who know me, know that I still question all of this. I mean I know this will happen, I just am super cautious. To a fault!!! Here we go....
I just want to take a moment to also thank everyone...for your kindness, generousity, thoughts and prayers. It has also been an overwelming experience for us, Megan's family. Megan has been a rock through all of this and that is in part due to her great friends. You have all helped us emotionally and financially for over a year now. The fundraisers have helped tremendously to help minimize the stress of this whole ordeal, but it hasn't stopped there...I've followed all of your words of encouragement to Megan. Sometimes I think you all know her better than she knows herself. You gave Megan strength and courage when she needed it most, and we will be forever greatful. Kevin and I will be in charge of trying to keep everyone updated on Tuesday. If anyone has any questions, feel free to call me at 415-1931. God bless you all!
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Patti do not forget what a rock you have been.
ReplyDeleteYou have been there for Megan and I know all the hard work you put in for her fundraiser. See you on Tuesday!