Over the weekend i have had the opportunity to appreciate those who are around me. I think that as people come and go so damn quickly, we forget about the people who are closest to us. I know who those people are. Whether they live near or far, its nice to know they exist. Katie, Sarah, and I got together Saturday night and laughed for hours. We didn't drink. We didn't go out. We sat in Sarah and Cari's beautiful home and remembered why we are such great friends. It was nice to sit there, talk and not have to ponder about blood types, kidney's, or what i can't do. Yes, we did talk about the "transplant adventure" but it wasn't lingered on. We talked about their lives, their families, and everything that was precious on my heart!! Thanks girls!!
I am 31 years old and haven't lost any friends via death. I know that people die in high school, in college, and as random acts, but I haven't had to deal with a close friend my age dying. What I have had to deal with is a lot of death via parents. Yes, parents die, but not at age 50, 42, 53, etc... etc... Since i have been in high school parents have died via cancer, tragic accidents, heart attacks, COPD, and a variety of other disasters. I know that people say, "what would you do if you had one month, one week, one day left on this earth". I always respond the same way, "I wouldn't do anything different". The great thing about being around death is that I don't tip toe around anyone. if i don't like you, you know it. If i need something done, i will tell you. Why do people worry so much about what others think? Don't get me wrong, i used to be like that. I used to worry about what everyone thought of me, but as i have gotten more sick, and as people close to me and my friends have died, i don't give two shits what people think. It is important to be honest, be truthful, and not worry so much about others. There was a time i wasn't going to do Dialysis, where i wasn't going to do whatever it took to live, but things change. I have changed. People can change. I am learning, change isn't so bad. :) I hope people look at this experience as a time to change. I still hate people and those people know who they are. I still love people, and they too know who they are.
I do want to thank those people who have signed up for golf. Those people who have sent donations and those people who pray for me. I know that this is a dead horse, but PLEASE contact Patti for a golf spot or to send any donations/auction items to her. You can reach the Amazing Patti Shanahan at 402-415-1931 or via email at pshanahan4@cox.net
I will be getting the Catheter placed on Thursday morning. Sure I will be having panic attacks/anxiety all this week and will let all of you know exactly what I am feeling.
Brandon -- if you read this, life isn't that hard!! Be happy!! Many people love you and want you to be happy! Stop being a grump!!
And finally... this line, this character, she is me... she says EXACTLY what she is thinking!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bdWfqKI8x5g
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