well... plans have really changed!

Well, well, well... I am back at Clarkson Tower. As everyone knows I have been having a lot of pain in my right side. Not so much in my incision area, but lower, more like my hip. So yesterday the pain was intolerable. I called the nurse and then she set up an appointment for me with Dr. Morris. When he came into the room, I wasn't able to hold my composure and just let loose. Let him know that it was horrible, and I couldn't take it anymore. why was there no relief? Will it ever get better?? ugh!! So another Doctor asked if I wanted to get admitted today or wait until Monday. As tears are streaming down my face I beg them to decide. "Whatever I say, I will question and wonder if it was right". So Morris and Vargus say that they want to admit me today.

I don't know too much, because like I had mentioned, I was very emotional and wasn't able to really "listen and comprehend" what they were saying. From what I understand tomorrow I will go to surgery where they will reopen my incision and remove some bacteria and look at possible nerve damage. So other then that I am not really sure what they will be doing. The doctor did remind me that the pain will continue to be there. I look at him with my big crocodile tears and ask, "will it ever go away?" and he responded that this should help. For those that really know me, today was a mental breakdown. I usually can handle it. I usually can deal with whatever i am dealt. Today was a different story.

So now the plan is that I will be in surgery tomorrow and hopefully feeling better in a few more days. In a perfect world, I would be up and at em by Thursday... but I am preparing myself for healing and getting rid of this pain that hasn't let up in over 3 weeks.

No one really knows that I am here, so I thought rather then just FB post some random statement, I would explain everything... I am not nervous or worried, I am just ready to feel relief. PS -- THIS IS NOT PANCREAS REJECTION... they are not worried about Hank, just the pain I have had for this whole recovery.

OK.... Talk in a few! M