I just want people to know i for some reason hate everyone and everything so far this week. Dr. Plumb came and spoke to me during Dialysis last night, and I told him I was "over it" and he needed to get me on some list or figure some way to get my "old life" back. I was ok with the new Megan for about 30 days. Hell, that was a lot longer then i thought i would have lasted. I sit in that damn chair, I wait and wait and wonder what the hell is going on!?!? He said he would talk to someone. Really?!?! who does he plan on talking to? Not like i am at the Outback and know the bouncer, "let me cut". We are talking about lives now. Not like because people like me I can cut to the front of the line. Real world shouldn't work like that!! :)
Dr. Plumb thought that i was on the transplant list, but would follow up and get back to me shortly. I guess i have to be fortunate enough to have an amazing doctor that can tolerate me and my "breakdowns". As of now, my immediate family can't donate a Kidney, and people who know me, know that I won't accept it from a friend, etc. I mean how will people pay for it? I mean they will be out of work, out of an income, recovery, hospital bills. I won't expect someone to do that for me. Guess i have to wait for some other family's misfortune for my success. That sucks. No if, ands, or buts about it... it sucks!!
ok. thanks. people might be able to understand my hatred this week and for the upcoming weeks/months/ and possible years... i really am sorry, but i mean this sucks. i want to be fun and carefree. I want a Diet Dr. Pepper!!! but due to diet restrictions, no dice!
Makes me think... i will explain diet restrictions when i am much more pleasant.
Megan I was just reading your blog and how things are going....I am so sorry this is happening to you but I am glad to see that the old Meggie that I used to live with is still there. I pray for you and think of you daily. I would love to get together when you are feeling well and have the time. I sure miss the good ole' days...man how things have change from the 144th and Maple days!!
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Colleen
Megan, if anyone can get through this, you can. I know that doesn't make it better or even fair... but you have been thrown a lot in your life and the reason why you have always been able to bounce back is because you are one of the strongest people I know. Just remember that everyone loves and cares about you more than you know. Even when you feel like you hate the world and everyone in it..just know we're here when you're ready:)
ReplyDeleteLove you Megan!! If you need a vacation, come to the sunny south....come to Topeka!! ;o) I've got three handsome men that will wait on you hand an foot....and a little cutie that will make you laugh!! I wish I could take this all away.
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Kim, Jeff, Steve, Quinn and Cade
Love you!
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